Firesola brought
me back from my thoughts. I know that sound. She is hungry. Seun has become so
engrossed with her career that she has neglected her family. Firesola was just 9
months old when she attended that seminar that opened up doors. That was how
she explained it. The doors, however were not wide enough to accommodate her
husband and her 9 months old baby. When I bring up discussions about taking
care of Firesola, I get shocked at what she says.
I fed Firesola
and prepared her for bed. Seun promised to come home that night. I miss her. I
stayed up till some minutes past midnight when she drove in. I had given her my
car to ease her movements. She walked in full of smiles. It’s been a while she
smiled in this house. What’s the good news? She came in and said ‘Finally, I
got it’. I was lost. ‘Got what? What did you get’?
I got the reply
as she walked into our room; London! The excitement in her voice was like salt
on my wounds. She explained that she has been working hard all the while so
that she can be chosen for a training in London. She got selected today! Wow. I
asked how long the training is. Her answer almost brought tears to my face. ‘You
will spend 6 months away from home’? That night, Seun and I had the biggest argument
since we met.
My major concern
is about Firesola. Taking care of her alone has been herculean. I have never
liked the idea of keeping her at a nanny, but Seun convinced me when she wanted
to resume work after her maternity leave ended. I agreed because I had no
choice. We pick her up latest by 5pm and take her there on our way to work in
the morning. Seun has not been available to do this since that seminar. Even
during weekends, Seun is out putting some finishing touches to some things at
work.
Now, she wants
to go for 6 months. I will be a fool to agree with this. The following day, I
expected Seun till midnight. After the argument, she went to bed without food
and didn’t say a word to me the following day. I tried to make her see reasons
why she should stay with us for now, but she kept saying that I’m standing on
the path of her progress. I woke up around 2am and Seun was still not back. I
tried her phone again. She has not been answering my calls.
As early as I
could, I went to her office. I met her looking radiant. ‘Did this lady sleep
over here?’ my mind argued. Seun has never given me a reason not to trust her.
Maybe she passed the night in a hotel. She didn’t give me much attention. The
only thing I could make out of our short conversation was that she stayed away
from home because I wasn’t giving her peace. I felt hurt. She showed me the
door without even looking at my face.
My God, what is
happening? I loaded her that day with text messages apologizing for the other
night. I begged her to come home. After a while she replied that she doesn’t
plan to come home unless I agree with her trip to London. Am I the insane one
or this girl has gone crazy? I spoke with some of our mutual friends and they
all could not get her to come home. I called Pastor. She still didn’t agree. I
was surprised. Seun has never been this disrespectful. Seun stayed away from
home for 4 days before I agreed to the trip. I couldn’t handle it any longer. I
gave in. Allowing Seun to travel is not what gave me concern, but the nudge I
keep getting from my heart showed that it was a wrong decision.
That evening,
she came home and stayed at the door. We looked at ourselves for about a minute
before she said ‘I’m leaving tomorrow.’ I offered to take her to the airport,
but she refused my offer. She was going with her colleagues that were chosen
from work too. I insisted that I would like to give her a final goodbye at the
airport, even if it means going there by myself. At the airport, she gave me a
light hug. Her perfume has always been tangible for me to hold. I made her
promise that we would speak every night. My heart sort of quaked at the sight
of her leaving. Something is wrong, but I couldn’t figure it out. Whatever
happens, I promised myself that I will always be in love with this girl.
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