Does God Use Introverts? (Part 1)

Recently, I found myself asking a question: does God use introverts? Of course, my answer is yes, but it took me a very long road to agree with that. The first time I heard the word introvert, it was used in an abusive way. One of my neighbors met me and tongue lashed me seriously because I hardly talk to him. One of the many harsh things he called me that evening was introvert. I was in SS3.

I returned home to consult my dictionary, but the meaning I saw didn't do enough to sanctify the meaning of an introvert in my mind. I saw it as a negative character and some sort of illness. It affected my self esteem greatly. I carried the badge of inadequacy and abnormality all around. You could easily read it on my face.

As a fresher in OAU, it became more glaring. I got more names like boring and proud. People thought I wasn't willing to talk to them when deep within me, I was craving so much of it, but I just didn't know how to. I discovered that I preferred staying alone than with people. In fact, staying in crowded places made me feel very uncomfortable. It ate me up day and night. My writings were more like suicide notes. My mental health was in a terrible state. Even believers made matters worse!

It was in this state of mind that I gave my life to Jesus and began to tow the path of life. In second year in college, I began to sense a call to be the next head of my department in the fellowship. You can imagine my outburst! I was scared to the teeth! How will I handle it? How will I talk to people? It is impossible. I remember how I went to the basketball court in ETF hall in OAU and I started crying; hoping that God would change His mind. I gave Him several other options.

The more I prayed, the more I saw that God has a keen interest in this shattered young man. Leadership position would amplify my weakness and just embarrass me. Why wouldn't He just leave me alone? What does He want from me that He cannot get from another person? Later on, I discovered that God saw something in me that made Him insist on me.

I eventually served in 7 offices before graduating from college and till now, I keep seeing His boiling desire over me. I have broken this piece into 2. I'll share with you what God saw in me in the next part

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